About 9 this morning one of my doctors told me I was back in sinus (normal) rhythm. That means my heart is, at least temporarily out of atrial fibrillation. Something we take for granted, the steady thump thump of our heart, and now mine seems back into some semblance of normality.
I don’t know exactly who to thank. There were friends, family, strangers, Saints, all praying for me. There were doctors and nurses and all kinds of medical people helping me through. The glory, ultimately, belongs to God who heals and is the source of all helpful and healing wisdom but I’m grateful to everyone who stood in the gap for me.
Of course it’s not over, yet. It may not be over until I pass on into eternity. This thing will be hanging over my head, the shadow always in the background. Yet I’m not going to worry too much. Life throws things at you and you need to do what you need to do. In my case it was to draw closer to God and find a way to work back to health so that I can serve Him.
God has always given me grace more than I deserve and these past days have been no exception. The only thing I want out of the rest of my life is to be whatever God wants me to be. That’s a scary promise, for sure, but I’m going to try my best to fulfill it. My heart tells me I’m getting older and that my systems can have trouble and even fail. My faith tells me I’m each day a little closer to being where I was meant to be in the first place. Between then and now is my life and I hope to make the best of it, the best of it meaning God’s best.
Thank you for all your prayers. I am moved by them. To whatever Saint(s) was interceding for me thank you. Gracious God help me to remember to number my days so I can increase in wisdom.