When I was a child…

people used to ask me “What do you want to be when you grow up?”

They usually, of course, had a single thing in mind, like being a firefighter or a doctor or a teacher. My first thing I wanted to be when I grew up was an archaeologist. I was a little braniac even then. Over the years I’ve thought about being a solider, a musician, a teacher, a writer, a pastor, a business owner, you know the drill. Every option was good but each option was too small.

The truth is that I want to be everything that interests me and being defined by one thing may be a sign of being grown up but its also extraordinarily boring. So I’m a Priest, a musician, a writer, a husband, a caregiver, at any one given time or all of the above at any one given moment. The only thing that’s the “one” thing is following Christ, the rest is wherever my heart takes me. I guess I’m old enough not to care about whether people think I’m sufficiently grown up and wise enough to know that putting all your eggs in one basket just doesn’t work.

Have enough to eat. Have people that love you. Keep close to God. A roof over your head would be nice and the rest is gravy. Sing when you want to. Pray when you need to. Work when the work is there to be done. Love as best you can. Don’t leave a gaping hole in the earth when you’ve gone to your reward. Live at peace with heaven and your neighbors. What more is there? Only the stuff that people want you to do because it matters to them.

Maybe I’m just an old hippie without the drugs. Still I’ll die with a smile on my face.

It's that I don't like…

what they do to me, the gossip blog sites in Orthodoxy, that has made me reconsider the time I have spent reading and occasionally writing in them. They seem, especially lately, to be mostly about anger and finding a way to one up each other. It’s like a kid’s game except for the fact that real people’s lives and reputations are being handled like yesterday’s trash.

I know there are problems , the Church is full of human beings. It was that way and will continue to be that way. I just am weary of people thinking that shouting at each other and name calling is going to help us through, it won’t. The longer I read sites like ocanews.org and ocatruth.com and a host of others with some dog in this fight the more weary I become. How can any one person continue to fuel such things and not have their soul begin to feel like a rock in their guts?

I don’t know. But I’m done. Let them shout at each other all they want. I’ve got better things to do like praying for our Bishops, doing the best I can to serve people, and not trying to burn my precious life energy on trying to control anyone but me. God knows what we need and God will provide.

How Easter killed my faith in atheism…

Was Jesus’ tomb empty? Scholar William Lane Craig points out that its location was known to Christians and non-Christians alike. So if it hadn’t been empty, it would have been impossible for a movement founded on the resurrection to have exploded into existence in the same city where Jesus had been publicly executed just a few weeks before.

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Wisdom and Joy…

If any man be devout and love God, let him enjoy this fair and radiant triumphal feast. If any man be a wise servant, let him rejoicing enter into the joy of his Lord. If any have labored long in fasting, let him now receive his recompense. If any have wrought from the first hour, let him today receive his just reward. If any have come at the third hour, let him with thankfulness keep the feast. If any have arrived at the sixth hour, let him have no misgivings; because he shall in nowise be deprived therefor. If any have delayed until the ninth hour, let him draw near, fearing nothing. If any have tarried even until the eleventh hour, let him, also, be not alarmed at his tardiness; for the Lord, who is jealous of his honor, will accept the last even as the first; he gives rest unto him who comes at the eleventh hour, even as unto him who has wrought from the first hour.

And he shows mercy upon the last, and cares for the first; and to the one he gives, and upon the other he bestows gifts. And he both accepts the deeds, and welcomes the intention, and honors the acts and praises the offering. Wherefore, enter you all into the joy of your Lord; and receive your reward, both the first, and likewise the second. You rich and poor together, hold high festival. You sober and you heedless, honor the day. Rejoice today, both you who have fasted and you who have disregarded the fast. The table is full-laden; feast ye all sumptuously. The calf is fatted; let no one go hungry away.

Enjoy ye all the feast of faith: Receive ye all the riches of loving-kindness. let no one bewail his poverty, for the universal kingdom has been revealed. Let no one weep for his iniquities, for pardon has shown forth from the grave. Let no one fear death, for the Savior’s death has set us free. He that was held prisoner of it has annihilated it. By descending into Hell, He made Hell captive. He embittered it when it tasted of His flesh. And Isaiah, foretelling this, did cry: Hell, said he, was embittered, when it encountered Thee in the lower regions. It was embittered, for it was abolished. It was embittered, for it was mocked. It was embittered, for it was slain. It was embittered, for it was overthrown. It was embittered, for it was fettered in chains. It took a body, and met God face to face. It took earth, and encountered Heaven. It took that which was seen, and fell upon the unseen.

O Death, where is your sting? O Hell, where is your victory? Christ is risen, and you are overthrown. Christ is risen, and the demons are fallen. Christ is risen, and the angels rejoice. Christ is risen, and life reigns. Christ is risen, and not one dead remains in the grave. For Christ, being risen from the dead, is become the first fruits of those who have fallen asleep. To Him be glory and dominion unto ages of ages. Amen.

It's not that tough…

to comprehend.

If you wish a good life…
Love God
Love everything God has made in the way He would wish it to be loved.
As far as possible live at peace with every person and the creation.
Understand that life is very much more than acquisition and focus on the things that matter.
If it won’t make life better for you or others and/or draw them closer to God its probably not worth it.

The hard part comes in the doing.